FOURTEEN WAS A HARD LINE TO WALK

"Craaaaaccckkkk!" The first sound I've heard when I threw away a cup of glass into the wall. After throwing such a thing, i cried aloud but I didn't notice at that time I had wound on my feet. It is a small wound but the bleeding can't be stopped and still present for a minute. I'd felt depressed for I'm still young yet I don't know what to do.

"It really hurts when you feel you're being ignored one day by someone who changed you from being who you are." It all started on the 7th day of July 2014, exactly 4:10 pm at St. Mary's Academy of Nagcarlan. That day when I'd met him for the first time but I'd ignored him for I don't want to collaborate and to be closer to him. On the next day, he texted me and I'd ignored it also. When the terrible day came, I sent a wrong message and I didn't know what to do because the person who received my message was him. This is the beginning of collaborating and knowing each other particularly the basic information about ourselves.

I trusted him and told him everything about my tedious life but having an assurance that he kept it until the last day of his life. Everyday is an admirable day. You want to ask me "why?". Yes I know you want to ask me right now before getting it's weird on the last part of my story. Why?" It's just simple because I'd feel better when I saw him even it's too far. I'd feel climbing up a tower and down an elevator shaft where I saw a tree surrounded by roosting birds but everything can disappeared all of a sudden. I've been wrong for all of these are such dreams of imagination yet I don't want to awaken from this.

Don't expect things to happen. it's better to feel surprised than be disappointed, right? I remembered the day when he talked to me seriously about the situation between my feelings and his feelings. That day, August 5 when he asked me, "Do you like me now or somewhere part on your heart can having a feelings for me?" That time I don't know what to do. I don't know what's the answer inside me. I don't know everything about love but I feel a little bit pain when he asked me. I'd answer "no" because somewhere part of my heart and mind was against the truth. I'm a good liar that time but I know I'm the one who lost everything. Everything that makes me happy.

Change was coming. I could feel it. It wasn't pleasant prospect, not when life was perfect tha way it was. After answering "no"... he looked happy then I'd found out that he loves his bestfriend. All of the best and wonderful description was replaced after this girl. The girl whose very special to him was only his bestfriend. the only one who changed him to be better person is only his bestfriend. It's sad to say that I want to answer "yes" but....

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